29/6/2017 8 Comments Did you have a lump?In short yes. A few years ago I had a lump which gave me no trouble but was checked out at the Royal Marsden Sutton. I was scanned and told there and then it was a fatty lump. Fast forward 3 years and a baby later, the fatty lump had vanished but what came in its place was a ragging mass that puckered my skin retracted my nipple and causes immense pain and burning. I also found my armpit was bulging too. At first I thought it was an abscess/mastitis hybrid and waited for it to go.....it didn't. I booked in with my G.P Dr Patel on Monday June 5th. He said he would refer me to the Royal Marsden. Wednesday June 7th I received my letter, my appointment was booked for Monday June 19th. I did go back to my G.P in-between as the pain and burning got worse, £17.20 worth of anti biotic's did nothing. I knew then it was Cancer. It feels different, to try and explain it would be like describing child birth to someone who hasn't had a baby.
My Darling Kev and I set off for the Marsden, he had an optimistic look on his face and I confidently smiled at him and said it'll be an infection. But I knew it wasn't. I knew my life was about to change. The doctor who did the ultra sound was lovely and very upbeat I had everything going for me, but her eyes changed when she scanned the lump over and over, now she knew too. It wasn't my secret anymore. She sent me for a mammogram by the time that had finished the nurse had got Kev from the waiting room and as soon as I sat on the bed. The words. The dreaded words. This isn't an infection, this is cancer. She then preformed 2 core biopsies of my breast and a FNA of my Lymph nodes. All the while this was happening I went into auto pilot and just thought of my kids. My beautiful Mia, handsome Bertie and my baby Effy. I had to wait a week for the results, but it flew by I had a day in the Marsden in-between, I needed a bone scan and a CT scan. Other then the cannula it was painless, they injected me with radioactive matter which meant 24 hours away from the kids so I did what most mothers do on a night off, I went to Pizza Express with my girlfriends Danielle and Lauren and drank Aperol Spitz! Results day. Monday June 26th. Its a bit of a blur so I will just share what I remember, yes its cancer, invasive ductal. Its in my lymph nodes. Bone scan and CT were clear which shows it hasn't spread but thats not to say rouge cancer cells aren't anywhere else they'd be too small to show on scans. I will need Chemotherapy to shrink lump so they can operate and remove lymph nodes. The Chemo will also zap any rouge cells. After all that I'll need Radiotherapy. I'm back at The Royal Marsden on Monday July 3rd and chemo should start the end of next week or early the week after. So there you have it, the story so far. Shit init!
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Holly
29/6/2017 07:03:02 pm
Hun this is breaking my heart reading this but u are one of the strongest people I know and u can fight this, here if u ever need anything xxxx
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Karina
30/6/2017 12:50:09 am
Laura I can't believe how amazing and strong you are!!!! So strong Cancer won't stand a chance against you xxx
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The mother in law!
30/6/2017 07:21:03 am
I always knew you had a way with words Lau but considering how tough this must be you write so eloquently and so bravely. Your journey im sure will be followed and felt by many and your strength in words will in turn give strength to fellow sufferers and those that love you of whom there are so many. We.stand beside you sweetheart xxxx
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Karen wheeler
30/6/2017 08:15:07 am
My darling
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Sue Whitfield
30/6/2017 04:52:46 pm
Laura after you heat this, and you will, you should write a book. You're a natural. Cancer fuck off!!!
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Natalie Gore
3/7/2017 03:34:08 pm
Hi Laura
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10/7/2017 10:08:24 pm
Laura. X
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Karen O'Neill
10/7/2017 10:41:33 pm
Sitting here with tears rolling down my cheeks and a lump in my throat xxxx stay strong for those beautiful babies xxxx
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