26/10/2017 4 Comments Friday I'm in love.....All my inspiration comes when I'm not near the laptop, I `have so much to write about but when I get the chance I can't seem to find the words. Everyday is a struggle. I don't take as many pictures as I used to too either. I hardly go out any more which doesn't help, I do insta stories from my bed usually whilst being climbed on by my kids. And thats ok, thats where I am. I have finished my EC chemo now which is crazy because it only seems like yesterday I was waiting for my chemo start date, all of sudden I'm 6 out of 8 down! 4 EC and 2 Taxol. I had my second Taxol yesterday and experienced an awful reaction. I had a strong and strange feeing in my lower chest which as soon as I told the nurse she hit the button and I had my first taste of emergency medicine. Within seconds I was surrounded by the most well oiled team. They knew exactly what to do and say and although I was crying my eyes with pure fear I knew I was in good hands. I couldn't breath I was on fire and my lower back felt like it was in a vice but normality was restored in 5 minutes. I had an oxygen mask on I was doing ok but I felt my arm was still burning I started to panic and kept repeating 'my arm is on fire, my arm is on fire' to realise it was resting on the heat pack used to keep your veins open! So from hysterically crying to hysterically laughing was the best medicine. I had to wait half hour then I saw a doctors who checked me over to see if I was ok to restart treatment. At this point i just wanted to go home and come back tomorrow. I had had 2 failed cannulas which always puts me on a downer, I'm not sure why. I had to submerge my arms in hot water in the hall way which reminded me of an old school punishment I just needed a dunce cap! Then the reaction, I just wanted to go home chill out and come back the next day. Unfortunately it doesn't quite work like that. They were to start me back on the same chemo I reacted too at a smaller and slower rate. My anxiety was through the roof, Kev had to leave work, I'm not usually a scaredy cat I prefer to deal with stuff on my own but I just wanted the security of my husband. The second bout of Taxol went fine, Ive been given medicine to take before my cycle to minimise the risk of it happening it again. I hope it doesn't this drug is doing amazing things for me and fucking up my cancer! I feel the difference myself, my tumour was 15cm by 10cm as well as the Inflammatory my boob was a right mess, it now looks normal again you can see where the Inflammatory starts and finishes too my nodes dont ache anymore and one has shrunk back to normal size too. As crappy as the chemo side effects are I thank my lucky stars everyday because for me its working. At this rate I will be cured cause Friday I'm in love x
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27/10/2017 06:04:48 am
Laura, it must have been terrifying for you and I think anyone would have blubbing their eyes out..
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Karen wheeler
27/10/2017 09:21:48 am
My darling
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Hen
28/10/2017 08:27:08 pm
I love it, am glad your a bit better what a fecking scare hen it's music to my ears to hear that everything's shrinking and what a tune one of my dads favourites and as he would be 64 this week am sure he's sent you to play it for me, luv you one of a kind Laura one of a kind xxxx
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Clair
31/10/2017 02:27:08 pm
Every time I read your blog I cry, sadness ur funny humour Your bravery is huge, one classy lady, kicking cancer in the ass!
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